Tuesday, January 20, 2009

Finding (Remembering?) Peace

It's been a rough today. Anxiety, most of it irrational, has been nagging me. I'm sure that being exhausted from lack of sleep isn't helping. Fortunately, my wonderful husband has been very supportive and is helping me "get back on track," emotionally. Being pregnant after a loss is not easy. It takes a lot of strength to keep from slipping into fear-based modes of thought. I don't always seem to have as much of that strength as I'd like, but I'm working on it. I long for the kind of unshakable inner peace I used to feel before I lost John. I am trying to trust in the trustworthiness of God, as my grandfather always says.

1 comment:

  1. Leana,

    Your fears are not irrational! Please don't think that. You have every right to be a nervous wreck during this pregnancy as all moms who have suffered a loss or devastating pregnancies complications do. I think it's healthy that you are able to admit you are feeling this way and it sounds like your husband is a wonderful support to help you through this difficult and joyous time.

    Sunday will be a big day for you as you celebrate 30 weeks - that's huge! Why not plan on doing something extra special just for you - you deserve it!

    ((Big hugs))